The idea is integrated and internalized, before I move forward.
To the extend that if I then meet an experience in the outside world that does not match up to the idea, I reject the experienced.
Not the idea.

This preference for the abstract and the cognitive side of life, expresses in making principle choices first.
And very often, without ever being able to achieve them.

In this way I keep choosing to live without sugar almost daily, but I never keep up with it.
But one day, I will.

However, what has happened before, and what is happening now with the Sexit from the title (Sex + Exit, just like the Brexit was Britain Exit) is reality happening all by itself and then me starting to internalize it into an abstract idea.

So I’m not talking about something quick and superficial like “Just go on that date, maybe you will like him after all!”
or
“Just take that job for now, what’s the worst that could happen, right?”

No, this is the equivalent of when you have been hanging out with someone for months or years, and realize: “I really like them.”

Or you’ve been helping out a friend or family member with their business and realize: “I would love to stay on and work here permanently.”

When the experience starts without any expectations, assuming it’s temporary, and then you think:
“This is actually pretty cool!”

That is what happened with my Sexit.

I’ve been hanging out with myself for years now, and I still love men and am open-minded about what the future could hold.
But there’s no denying that my solitude is becoming more precious to me by the day.

The idea of no longer having sex, has been slowly growing on me.
To the point I can now say:
I love it.
.

~Lauren
An unexamined life is not worth living

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