Initially, I thought it was just me having higher standards now.
And they were installed intentionally, so I thought this was a New Me or something.

Until I realized this is who I have been all along.

The discovery started when I tried to specify (don’t freak out!) where I want to reincarnate or dwell;
A place (a realm, most likely) where I only love.
I don’t want to do anything else.

Only to conclude that, of course, this meant my first job was to create a life of love here on earth, as an experiment but also because I suspect they don’t hand out passes to The Realms of Infinite Love like peanuts.
I will have to build a case for myself, to prove I am ready.
A case built on what I did with my current life.

I will live a life of love, now.

And in my case I know for a fact this is unconditional, divine, romantic love.
This is a proven spiritual path, I didn’t make it up. Just that it’s not really practiced in the west, although Christianity also has elements of it.

Romantic divine love itself, is the complete path. It is not a first act in something that should lead to sex or a relationship, although both could happen.
It’s about the devotion itself.
And that is what I have always wanted, ever since my first idol when I was 12.

If they don’t have realms with unconditional divine romantic love in the afterlife, then I’m willing to go general. But here on earth I know that romance is the strongest spiritual lead.
This devotion has been there my whole life just that I forgot about it. Or chose to ignore it when it proved to be incredibly impractical.
Creating intense drama, because I also wanted other things from them.

I decided to get practical, starting with no longer having my heart broken.
Romantic divine love had to go.
This new phase in my life required strategy. Which in turn, and after many years, I was able to turn into standards.
I’ll keep an eye on them, if they let the right man/men through effortlessly.
But their protective function has already proven to be reliable.

This means I can safely return to romantic love as it once came natural to me.
As devotion.
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.~Lauren
An unexamined life is not worth living